SJI yINTONATIONAL

2010-07-31T18:52:00.001+08:00

screw this. i'm killing this blog in favour of a paperback journal.

2010-07-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

damn, it just started again. but it should end soon yet again.

Time

2010-07-19T04:00:00.001+08:00

is ticking on, and so we must be gone.

strange

2010-06-30T11:23:00.000+08:00

but weird dream.

a though.

2010-06-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

"I'm going to leave this world the way I entered it, Dirty, Screaming, and Torn Away from the woman I love"
- Homer Simpson

meh.

2010-06-23T13:27:00.001+08:00

.meh.

Pre-Panic

2010-06-11T17:11:00.002+08:00

My end of semester exams begins next Saturday and I do not seem to feel the stress as of yet. It parallels what happened during IB so perhaps I will feel super stressed out just before I sit the exam.

By the way. Cream cheese crackers are awesome. Next up, I will try topping the cream cheese with lumpfish caviar! (Pity I could not find trout caviar but no doubt it would be a lot more expensive than lumpfish). Mmm... Tasty.

1st post in adelaide

2010-04-23T00:06:00.001+08:00

I've been in Adelaide over 2 months now and it has been even longer since I last blogged. But I have decided to start blogging soon since it get so darn boring over here at times. I'll blog more later since it is already 1.30.m. over here already. Just finished making whole lots of changes to the blog theme. Later!

2009-10-18T11:54:00.001+08:00

round 3. game over?

Peace

2009-08-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

I would be at peace.
If it wasn't for the stupid IAs and Mocks being stuck together like gum on a shoe.

failed or failing.

2009-07-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

Some things, I do better than others.
These other things, I simply struggle with them.
It would be meaningless to say that I should have tried.
In fact it would not even be entirely accurate.
I'm trying to, but nothing just comes out the way I want it to be.

Yes, the silly ideas about have side by side houses.
Grand, comforting but it'll all just end up as one other illusion.
Still. It was soothing for the mind while it lasted.
To dream of the impossible.
To dare reach for it.
Just to fall back.
To where I came from.
Nowhere.

X-X

2009-06-25T21:03:00.001+08:00

DEAD for some time

and its gone...

2009-05-29T21:30:00.001+08:00

that was really quick
one moment it was there
and next it does not exist anymore

untitled

2009-05-29T20:22:00.002+08:00

I'm really unsure.
Yes I know that this isn't much of an excuse.
But...
Are you referring to me?
The mind tends to see things that it wants to.
I want things not to be like it is now.
At the same thing I dare not take hasty actions.
The brain sees similar things elsewhere and make assumptions.
I hate these presumptions.
It tears me apart though I have to keep and suppress the pieces.
Please for once. Give me your thoughts.
Don't leave me here all alone. Sad.

Nasty little bugger she is.

2009-05-19T23:50:00.011+08:00

YAY my first post in a while.
(not that many people care actually except for Jose! and his arse! [NOICE!!!] hahaha :P)

Haven't had the time to blog and in fact I probably should not be blogging now.
Should be sleeping.
Or working. [taking a rest now :) ]
BUT... oh well. Things does now always work the way that we want it to.
So we've got to make the best out of life!
Or what's left of it.
So let me see, plenty of work to do, some from the previous checklist.
I guess i really should not be blogging then.

Section A

Well, its been several really average weeks due to some awesome ones and crappy ones so the mean is about average. We watched Star Trek last Friday after Founder's Day and it was not bad! Not bad at all. Humph. I am not a Trekkie. Still it was pretty good. Now I can't wait for terminator and transformers. Both of which happens to be movies about robots! No, i do not have a bot fetish unlike some of you people. :P Anyways, gotten closer to some of you people and i've got one more BFF making it to a grand total of 4 BFFS. Haha. Man, i love you guys.

Section B
- is going to be short and simple
HUH?

Section C
You. Yes You. No not You. YOU!!! Me? huh? No. You.
Oh, it is so confusing and kinda nostalgic.
I remember when the same thing used to happen to me.
But I have learnt something today.
Would anything be different if I took a different approach?
Possi-ble but quite improba-ble
The thing is, I see you in you!
All the same things, I see it resurfacing in the same manner.
Albeit not to me this time.
Lucky me. Not having to face the same confused moments of despair.
Not having to admit to anything just for the sake of meaningless placation.
Yes, I'm sure we all do things deliberately and intentionally just to well, make you say you're sad.
Well, they were unintentional anyway.
Believe it or... No you won't
"Your ego is so out of whack that it would do whatever it can to protect itself. And people with a messed up ego can do these mental gymnastics to convince themselves they're awesome, when really they are just douche bags"
--- Kyle the Jew
Yes. Blame us. We're all self-centered that we only care about ourselves. If face we deserve to be pitied by the likes of you. We're all lack identities and more.
These are the mental gymnastics that you have done to convince yourself that it is everybody's fault but yours. You'd really think that the two different people would end up being the same? I would say its you. After you use the exact same words to try to break someone. Some keywords which i hardly feel the need to put in place here.
Those are my thoughts as a bystander now and a ex-victim.

Sneaky

2009-05-11T22:58:00.001+08:00

Omg.. Look at this.

Seriously that's an invasion of privacy.
Like the ????
Hahahaha.
Time to hunt down this "STOMPer JackFroze"

ARGH!!!!!!

2009-05-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

Yes. While its good that i have finish CHINESE A2 EXAMS!!! I now have collected a stock pile of work. Damn.

A preview of what's to come.
Chem IA Qns
Phy IA Qns
TOK Essay
University Form Thing
Pharm Info
Econs WS
Chem PastYr
Practice Math
CAS Forms and Reflect
Phy Catch Up
Chem Catch Up
Econs Catch Up
Chem Sn1 and Sn2 Animations
English IOP
English Macbeth

Yes that's a load of crap that i have to complete. This is BS! Oh well. Time to slave my ass off. I WILL PREVAIL

New!!!

2009-05-02T21:30:00.001+08:00

So yeah, i had changed the skin.
right now the tag board is hidden so erm. click the TAG button.

-A longing that must be suppressed

Mistakes Maker

2009-04-18T00:40:00.004+08:00

I've been there. Saw what happened.
Now I'm here. Anticipating what would happen.
Yet I don't seem to be moving away from it.
Not even any attempts to avert a reoccurrence.
The pain of the mistakes popping into existence once again.
Learn and Look Ahead.
That I should.

i am the soap

2009-04-15T22:08:00.001+08:00

Went to the toilet and i saw this bar of soap.
What are the chances of this happening?

Listen.

2009-04-15T20:32:00.005+08:00

When you're more quiet, you can hear more.
Being calm & at peace is the way.
To know more, to listen to more.
Prevents hasty presumptions
In making careful thoughts.

retreat

2009-04-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

for now.

The signs certainly seemed to be asking for this

work work!

2009-04-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

I need to be a grunt, a peon right now.
Need to do work to devour my restless mind.
Work!
Eat it all up.
Leave no remnants at all.
Can't have strays lying around.

identity crisis

2009-04-12T23:41:00.003+08:00

- "I'm not your buddy, guy."
"I'm not your guy, friend."
-"I'm not your friend, buddy."
"I'm not your buddy, guy."
-"I'm not your guy, friend."
"I'm not your friend, guy."
-"I'm not your guy, buddy."

and so on and so forth it goes.

Fool's Gold

2009-04-09T22:58:00.005+08:00

Just when I thought things might get better.
I've had thought that I've finally struck gold.
Then it seems that I was a fool.
Now I've decided that I found Fool's Gold,
I still wonder, could I be overlooking something yet again.

My affinity for afflictions

2009-04-09T14:26:00.001+08:00

overdue.

2009-04-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

After so long, I've finally gave up on making the "weijie-like" skin.
Its no easy task doing it from scratch, there were so many kinks along the way.
So ended up revamping this "temporary" skin, made some minor adjustments here and there.

Changes. That's one less change that I've made.
On the other hand, there are some other change.
Some things I've never expected that I'll do, but I still did it on a whim seems to be turning out fine.
Now I'm at the crossroads again.
With 2 paths.
Under a similar weather.
One of which I had took a second time even though the first time was disastrous.
Needless to say the second time fared no better.
Now which way to go?

change!

2009-03-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

going to change the skin when i have time.
lots of things to change.

It's all right...

2009-03-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

... if you don't believe me.

64

2009-03-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

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Only Human.

2009-03-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

Transcending human nature proves to very stubborn indeed.

We are what we are.
I am who I am.

There’s hardly any doubt that it killed me.
A part of me was ripped out and chewed upon.
Only being spit out later on and discarded.
Now, I’m not whole anymore.
But screw that. I’ll find a way to fill the void.
Failing to do so, I’ll allow myself to get sucked in.

However, I’m really glad it all happened.
It makes me feel alive that there’s something that could make me feel that sad.
It makes me feel human.
So, it must have shreds of good it the entire thing.

.ǝʎqpoob puɐ sʞuɐɥʇ

As long as you're happy.

2009-02-25T21:02:00.001+08:00

Cancelled.

2009-02-25T17:14:00.001+08:00

On Hold Indefinitely

2009-02-24T21:38:00.001+08:00

Why? Or not.

2009-02-21T21:41:00.011+08:00

If you read the other post then you would know what to do
It would be the same password as the previous one you've read.

Show encrypted text

-

2009-02-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

Show Me

Whatever it takes.

2009-02-18T21:46:00.003+08:00

I do not know if this blog is actually read by anyone else other than Jose. (thanks dude. those simple comments actually mean quite a lot)

So i'll take it that you do occasionally read my blog but have nothing to comment on.
Furthermore, i'll take it that you would have read this post.

I'm not omniscient. I do not know everything.
But I'll try my best.
You may or may not want to.
But I'll wait.

I'll wait for as long it takes
I'll do whatever that is needed.

I'm patient. Determined.
and I have an entire lifetime to wait.

Dark Side

2009-02-16T22:28:00.003+08:00

Pessimistic and Fatalistic

on the other hand.... (as an afterthought)

Ambitious, Patient, Determined.

For your eyes only

2009-02-15T00:32:00.014+08:00

If you’re the one whom can understand Cantonese, go ahead.
Your date of birth in dd/mm/yyyy

P.s. It seems like it is not clickable in internet explorer

The itch

2009-02-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

It like this annoying itch that comes back after you scratch it.
You scratch it and you end up with a sore.
However if you don't, you end up with this insatiable yearning to do something about it.
The itch and you can't really coexist

Conflicting Entities

2009-02-01T21:29:00.001+08:00

It has been some time since I've look at it in detailed way.
Scrutinising it, analysing it, thinking about it
and failing to understand it.

These two beings manifest themselves intermittently.
Burrowing themselves deep into my awareness
with unknown intent.

The first one, seeds the first possibility into my mind.
What if.

The second, plants the second contingence possibility.
No. It must be.

External influences seem to be supporting the second presence.
Look at what’s going on, it must be true. They say.

I listen to them and find myself unwittingly agreeing with them.
The first entity suggests that there might be more.
It fails with its pathetically weak argument.

Now I’m caught in-between these two, finding myself slowly siding towards the second.
Yet, all three of us are part of a collective conscience.
That is me. Myself.

I have to decide for myself as what it is.
At that moment, it seemed I’ve got Multiple Personality Disorder.
Thoughts fragmented, incoherent and illogical.

What if I had schizophrenia, mild as it is.
That would explain a lot.
Or could it be that outside stimulus that led me to such a conclusion.
Such an end that I do not want.
I wanted it to be more. It might even have been mutual.
But it was not more with me. Or so it seems.

A deep seated desire for clarity goads me to ask for the truth.
Logic tells me that it would not be of much use.
What good is the truth, if it was not what I was seeking?

I really have lots to say.
Though I do not know how to start.

Don't Give Us That CRAP

2009-01-31T15:57:00.001+08:00

Thanks sa!!!
I love the calender. It's up on my wall now.

Look

"some french word"

2009-01-29T16:06:00.002+08:00

Really, that was just a follow up to my post.
At least the last part was.
The front part was something that i stumbled in firefox.
Its a natural geographical phenomenen
Which has NO significance at all.
Other than the fact that it was pretty interesting.
Speaking of burst of random rage.
It was always you.
Remember the times when you got all pissed off?
Oh right, you have self induced amnesia.
OR it could be just that you're so stressed out and thus everything's fuzzy.
That's really convinient eh?
I'm glad that you think that everything is about you.
Having self-esteem does help, in some cases.
and just like how you won't laugh at people in a mental institute,
I won't laugh at you.
After all, you bring both sensitivity and insensitivity to a whole new level.

natural goodness

2009-01-28T19:59:00.004+08:00

Hell does actually exists on earth itself.
Take a look at this.

This is a photo that was taken at Turkmenistan.

Its a natural gas pocket that when exploited caught fire and ended up burning.
Now its a sinkhole with a direct view into hell.
Pretty interesting, how it burns and resembles what some people fear and use to curse others.

Dante's Inferno.
The seventh circle of hell.
That's where you're heading.

"yeah, its mutual." and other things

2009-01-21T18:50:00.005+08:00

Likewise. Oh really? Suits me fine.

That's a faux pas.

There it is.

Salvation exists. But only to those whom truely seek it.
Hell awaits. For all those whom deserves it.
For those whom believe in neither, best of luck to you.

A hardly poetic two lines but nevertheless applicable.

Other things
it seems like my leg is recovering. expected to use crutches but some of you would play with it :P
glad i didnt have to use crutches. Swelling's gone down, but the bruising has gone up. So that evens out to nothing happening.

opps

2009-01-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

seems while messing around with blogger, i accidentally deleted my prev. post. oh well.

it hurts so bad

2009-01-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

i hate my ulcer. its huge. and its hurts.
tried putting salt on it and ended up making it larger.

analysis

A problem which is so painful. Attempts to make it better only makes it worse.
Ends up hurting myself more.

Confusing Story

2009-01-13T16:54:00.004+08:00

10 months ago, A started talking to B.
That started with the trading of personal preference.
B prefered C. A prefered B.
After a while B didn't really prefer C that much.
A & B got along really well.
4 months later, B started avoiding A because B prefered D now.
B & D did not really work out that well.
A & B are now further apart. A tries to mend things but fails.
A tries over and over again and it did not work.
D is now out of this story.
Along comes F whom seems to be much better of a character than A.
Still A tries to fix things with B. B refuses and seems to regret ever knowing A.
A still thinks of B as a friend but B says mean stuffs.
Then A tries to get along with F and seemingly all seemed to be working out.
Then it all fell apart somehow and went back to normal. In other words, nothing happened.
So right now, B seems to prefer C loads again.
A tries to talk to B again for some reasons which seem to be misguided now.
B is too preoccupied with C with textual records that can be obtained.
4 months after A & F starting interacting, F seems to be going away from A.
F seems to be sticking to C now.
B goes to C first and now F goes to C.

A is the only letter that is isolated from BCD and F
It is the only vowel in this group.

striking resemblance

2009-01-11T21:04:00.004+08:00

just like my blog skin, everything's gone up in flames
just like my blog skin, its all crappy and messed up
just like my blog skin, everything is just wrong

A brand new year started, with the same old things.
It just shouldn't be that way.
Its all so nostalgic, seems so unforgettable yet with a distinct sense of unfamilarity.
Nostalgia, The Forsaken.
I belonged as one of the member of The Forsaken.
It was the group name for the dracula project back in secondary 2.

That was the intial stages of our horror/gothic themed exhibition.
The Forsaken. Yes, those memories.
Somehow, it just surfaces again after so long.
And some other things just appear with a striking similarity
to certain things i wish were gone forever.

Tagged,

2008-12-27T11:30:00.001+08:00

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog.
Replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.

B. Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

01. What are your nicknames?
It was lamp, lamb last time. Now it’s mainly variations of the word “comms” and occasionally tard.

02. How do you style your hair?
As it is.

03. What's new in your life right now?
Everything. Things that I’ve realised long before but only took notice recently.

04. How many colours are you wearing now?
2 (green and white, SJI P.E shirt :P)

05. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Both. Maybe perhaps the question should have been “to what extent”

06. What are you doing while filling out this meme?
Thinking about how to answer this particular one.

07. Do you nap a lot?
Sometimes, whenever I can afford to.

08. How's your heart lately?
Diseased. I feel so unfit. Going to start training up. Otherwise, it should be pretty well, at least since the near past.

09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
I’ll take this as a “yes” or “no” question. Yes.

10. What's your favourite dessert?
Most things with chocolate that is not too sweet. Sweet is ok, but not to excessive.

11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
The time it takes for me to get out of my bed, which varies.

12. How do you want to live when you grow up?
Space. Lots and lots of space. With some preferable company.

13. What was the last book you finished reading?
I have no idea. Been some time. Last book I browsed through? Card Sharping.

14. Do you like to see things clean?
Much more then dirtied things.

15. What's the play count of the last song that got stuck in your head?
Some double digit number. It’s hard to get songs stuck in my head with so many songs.

16. What's the last DVD you bought?
I don’t buy DVDs, dad buys them

17. Can you touch your toes?
Probably.

18. What is your favourite ice cream flavour?
I’m good with anything, except maybe coconut flavoured ones.

19. What's the last movie you watched?
You don’t mess with the Zohan
Watched only about the first half of it yesterday then went out.

20. What are you most looking forward to in the coming month?
Friends.

Tagging:
WEIJIE!
Jessica
Joey
Sa!
Binks!

SJII IB Forum (Beta)

2008-12-25T18:18:00.002+08:00

The School is going to have an Senior School Site and there would also be a forum for the students and teachers. However we've yet to finalise the site location and thus the forum is now on

http://sjiiibforum.300ms.com/

However this forum is pretty much set up and ready to be used.
Still a bit buggy though. Would be fixing the bugs later.
The layout is a rudimentary one, it would be changed soon.

So you guys can create an account and log in and start contributing.
By the way, please use your Actual Names and do not use alias.
Unidentifiable accounts would be deleted and the IP promptly banned

Tested and Proven

2008-12-24T00:14:00.003+08:00

It's called a Cliché because it is one.
We don't use it anymore cause it does not work anymore.
Salmon swim upstream during the season.
Not all of them survive the trip.
The reason is that they were going upstream.
Nature proves that going against the flow is hazardous and will not always workout.

My Sanctum

2008-12-23T01:52:00.002+08:00

Where is it?
Damn.

I'm always worried. Ok, not always.
But recently it has been that way.
This blog is probably dead.
Nobody really cares.
No, I do not think I'm being emo right now.
It feels much different when I am.
I Care.
That much I can say.
But its not for you, lil turtle.
To me, lil tortoise you're nothing but a bowl of 龟苓膏

1 + 1 = 2
1 + 0 = 1

One alone does not make two.
Unless we're making axioms for a new type of mathematics
Scheelbeek would be proud to see me quote TOK.
Apologies for the weak analogy.
Hasn't been the best few weeks for me.

Really, Going with the flow? It works?
It sure does a good job of drowning me.
Am seeking sanctuary now.

Random Reflections

2008-12-19T23:41:00.009+08:00

This is what happens when you try to do homework for a prolonged period of time.

1) Easily Distracted
2) due to Loss of Momentum
3) Mess around with a psp which is about 50cm away from me
4) Get bored with it pretty quick
5) Guilt sets in and tries to work again
6) Starts slacking after a while
7) Decides to take a short "rest"
8) Browse around the net randomly
9) Looks up MSN contact list
10) Finds someone to talk to
11) Gets a somewhat defensive answer when being genuinely concerned. [But hey, its alright]

That's mainly what happens when you attempt to work continously without taking breaks in between. Oh and

12) Ends up blogging about it

Right now i'm like "Oh Damn.. shouldn't be blogging" Oh well, might as well finish this one thing that i've started.

Approximately 2 more weeks of holidays till school starts. I'm kinda missing school already. Well, mainly its the people in school. Yet I dread that paticular day since I've yet to finish homework.
Was chatting on Msn and Yeah as I mentioned in point 10, I do not really mind much about your response. Well, kinda used to it already. I'm sure you have your reasons but anyway, that's out of point. However please, concern between friends are perfectly normal. However I will not go on about it. Sure i've have some hunches about what's going on but I won't explore on this issue or think too much about it. We all have our secrets and it irritating when people try to find out or guess what it's about. Enough about this. ~~Moving on to another thing.~~

I never thought that you would do such a thing? Deleting a tag? Seriously. That is not cool. If that's the way you want it to be so be it. After everything, the random bouts of anger which was absoulutely uncalled for, I still tried to be a friend. Looks like its not really working eh? Correct me if I'm wrong, but since it seems like you prefer to reject me, roll over and hmm. I don't know, not anymore. Forgive me for trying to be your friend again.

PizzaHut

2008-12-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

Was at pizza hut having dinner.

Sigh, Its True

2008-12-18T17:21:00.001+08:00

Show encrypted text

Gonna Learn Too!

2008-12-16T11:45:00.000+08:00

Mixture of Things (HK Included)

2008-12-14T20:00:00.008+08:00

It’s a quote from a song you tard. Go check it out. Look I’ve even provided a link so that your highly incapable mind may have this very slim chance of ever reaching the site.

LINK

There you go, just move your cursor slightly and left click. LEFT click NOT right click. Hopefully your brain didn’t blow a fuse. Well, I had to make sure. After all from what has been shown, your mind is definitely having a precarious time processing the present and has to go back to the same point over and over again. Are you still with me? Good Job. Give yourself a pat on the back; the way a caring owner does it to his pet dog or whatever animal you own. Honestly, please don’t just go around writing such stuffs just for the sake of doing it. EVERYONE has their bad times and it doesn’t really give you a right to bring up such things again. However, some people do have such rights; I suppose you’re one of them. Remember those criminals whom were convicted of murder but somehow they were not given capital punishment? That’s because some of them file for unstable emotional and mental health. These people end up in mental institutions, I used the word “Institutions” and not “Asylum” because I thought it may be a bit more comforting and easy on the ears. Now how do you feel knowing that you are liken to such a group highly specialized individuals? I hope you are feeling much better now. Remember to take care of yourself, if you have a really bad headache and taking two panadols doesn’t seem to work, try taking an entire box. It might work. Who knows? Tranquilizers work too. While you’re at it, try to grow up a bit, not physically (Yes I know I’m not tall either) but rather your mindset. Well, try to grow as much as possible or as much as you can achieve whichever is easier for you to do so.
_________________________

Now On To Journaling
I left for Hong Kong on the 2^nd of December. I arrived back in Singapore at approximately four o’clock this afternoon. In one word, Hong Kong = Awesome. I stayed with my aunt for the entire duration there and got a room to myself. The bed was comfy but whenever I opened the windows the mosquitoes who fly in and I had hunt them. It was fun trying to catch them. Nah, I’m just crapping. On the first day I arrived it was lunch time and we went to a restaurant to eat DIM SUM. My aunt stuffed me with lots of food and she even ordered an entire fried pigeon. Pigeon was not bad. And for the next 4-5 days I spent the time attempting to do some homework and prepare for the SATs on the 6^th. Finally the day arrived and I went to the neighborhood testing centre and there for lots of people taking the test, particularly the people from Mainland China. Go CHINKS!!! Yeah so the invigilator was a Hongkie(or any other variation) so naturally he was awesome too. “Don’t Worry. No Rush” The SATs were fairly ok on average with the Mathematics Section being pretty easy but with the English section being weirder and harder. So after the SATs went to my eldest cousin’s new house for BBQ. Next day went around walking about then at night had buffet dinner. MONDAY. Met up with Juns, Sarah, Mary, Jinx, Roth at JW Marriot and then we set of for Ocean Park.

TUESDAY. Went out with them again. Walked around. Ate at a random restaurant ordering random food which turned out to be tasty. Stupid Roth kept on trying to claim credit for the food considering that he was the one whom blindly ordered the food. After dinner we went for desert. Ok that’s about it. Next 2 days was nothing much but I went to a mall with a mini exhibition on vintage harmonicas.

On Friday though, I went to Macau. It was enjoyable I suppose and the next day I managed to sneak into a Casino, it was quite dull actually. At least the one I went into was. Anyway here's a pic of the venetian thingy.

So then Saturday I came back and then met with my grandma etc. At night I started packing. I went to Hong Kong with 2 baggage and came back with 6 item. This is how my aunts did it their way, stuffing me with all kinds of things, foodstuffs etc. And, now I’m back!

My Wood

2008-12-06T22:20:00.001+08:00

here's my wood. was so bored so i decided to plug it in and take a photo.

YAY! FINISHED SATS!

2008-12-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

yeap, finished it. Woke up this morning at 6a.m. Yawn. Had to reach the test center at 7.45. Ate breakfast and left the house at 6.45a.m. Reached the test Center (Tai Po District Secondary School) at aroudn 7.15 a.m. Stoned in the cold for another 15 minutes before being allowed into the test hall. Woah, there were lots and lots of people taking the SATs and quite a number of people from mainland china. haha. anyway took the test, the questions were relatively ok when it was mathematical questions. The english questions were more demanding with really weird words popping up. They should have more math sections than english sections though. So once i finished, i went back to my aunt's house and then later i went out. Finally managed to buy a slip case for my handphone. Yay! no more hand sewn crap. and i also bought a really cool chunk of wood. So then i went over to my cousins new house for a BBQ. Just came home. Done. Maybe i'll post a picture of my wood. (i'm sorry, my newly bought chunk of wood :P)

From my Heart

2008-12-03T19:22:00.002+08:00

Reveal

Tag!!!

2008-12-02T22:16:00.005+08:00

Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

tagged by danusha!

Tag:
-nah screw that.

1) If you were dared to shave your head bald, would you do it?
Hell yeah, but if you asked me to cut my hair i won't. That's kinda weird considering why i would prefer shaving to cutting.

2) Describe yourself in one word
Tard.

3) Who will you pick,someone who really love you or someone you love?
Someone whom really loves me. I can't make others love me but through time, i can love others.

4) Have you ever love someone but never had the courage to tell?
"love"?

5) How if people reject your confessions face to face?
"hmm... why?" "oh!" "ok"
OR
Attempt to bury myself alive

6) God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, if you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
I'm bringing all our memories with me.

7) What will you say to a person who doesn't want to believe you?
Heresy! Nah, just crapping. It'll probably "i'll try my best to explain"

8) Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
For who they are.

9) Do you have someone special with you all the time?
My laptop! More crapping. AND NO I'M NOT A TECHIE.

10) Long distance love?
With my brother in australia! Family ties are important

11) Best place to cry?
Under my work bench.

12) Who do you love the most?
Apart from my family? He/She/It would know.

13) Ever hated someone so bad?
I will forgive but i won't forget.

14) The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
The most recent one and memorable one is by the person whom tagged me. Dan, you know....

15) The last person you had beer with?
I dont like beer so i don't drink it but i'm still getting a beer belly.

16) The last person you went to the movies with?
Hmm... celine?

17) The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
Erm... weijie i think.

18) The last person you hugged?
*acts innocent* but it was yesterday at 12+

19) The last person you yelled at?
Don't think so.

20) In the last week, have you kissed someone?
Yeah the mirror, but it was so cold and unresponsive. Nevertheless entertaining.
NO OF COUSE NOT.

21)Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
The great inquisition conducted by my father.

22) If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
Right now at this very moment it would be for .................

23) If you could have an all expense paid trip, where would you go?
The destination does not really matter. The main thing is the company. Even if we were to go to some crap hole, it'll still be the best trip

24) What reminds you most about her/him?
Him/ Her? Who?

25) What/who would be the hardest thing/person for you to give up on?
It would not be a thing. Things are just external materials whereas a person is special. At this moment unless something drastic happens it would be........... (no it does not have anything to do with the number of dots)

26)What would you grab if your house is on fire? (3 things only)
1. Laptop (not cause i'm a techie but rather the memories it encapsules)
2. Valuable Assets
3. Maybe my sister :P

27) Four things that scare me.
1. Losing those that i hold dear to me
2. Not waking up one day or rather waking up to find that it had all been FAKE!
3. My parent's individualistic logic.
4. Sometimes myself. Key-> sometimes

28) Last movie you watched.
I've forgotten.

29) 3 of your favourite colors.
1. Deep Red
2. Black Onyx
3. Brown? (that's probably due to the fact i have several brown possesions)

awesome

2008-12-02T16:40:00.003+08:00

I woke up at 4.m. this morning and left the house at 5a.m. Finally went on the plane and arrived in HK at 11a.m.!!!!
So i took a bus from the airport to my aunt's house.
Then it was abt 12pm ++ so we went for DIM SUM!!!
it was so good.......
much better than singapore's "香港茶餐厅" *cough* *phonies* *cough*
oh well, 12 more days.
i'm starting to miss you people, well, some more than others and some less.
in fact i missed you people when i woke up this morning already.

(added pic of tsing ma bridge)

Public Announcement

2008-12-01T18:36:00.004+08:00

Normally reflections are meant to be personal but well, this time its not going to be as such.
This time it'll be on my blog cause then maybe those of you if any at all whom read my blog could ensure that i keep to my decisions.

REFLECTIONS

The year has been awesome on the whole. BUT, like any other events or sequence of events, there are the AWESOME moments and the DEPRESSING moments.
Thanks to all those people whom made my day. I would give you all kisses but well, i'm sure you'll rather not get them anyway.
and as for those that made me feel depressed...
let's just say that it wasnt all that bad, you gave me some emotions made me feel not so much like a stone. so yeah, thanks for making me sad and stuff.
Quote "i will forgive, but i won't forget" Unquote

[INSERT PHOTOS HERE which i'll do so in HK]

Lemme list down the awesome months
Jan --> Mid-June

Now, the crappy months :(
Mid-June --> July?

and from July onwards it was kinda below average at occasional time it would pick up, but most of the time it was kinda sucky.

The above is basically a super condensed version of my life for the past year in chronological order.

Oh well, life certainly is crappy but hey, at least there are still some good things (or that's what i falsely believe or hope to be true anyway)

Some major things i've experienced is that for some reasons, rushing too fast is really horrible thing to do. My parents have constantly told me that i'm too impulsive whenever any conflicts arise between us. I used to believe that it was all just a trick to bend me to their will for what they've believe to be the best for me. Now its seems like its true. My acquaintances would probably agree with my parents. So i know that i have made some promises which i have failed to keep throughout the entire year but hell, if given another chance. Yes, somethings i've recieved plenty of oppurtunities but if given just one more, i would make sure i keep to what i've said i would do. Moving on, some other things have been floating inside my head like a haze so i've been trying to get it out but i'm not really that eloquent so the words just get stuck inside my head.

Ok, now for my new year's resolution for the following year including this month
1) For starters, get my annoying emotions under control. "Control your emotions, don't let them control you" .
2) Finish what i start.
3) Try not to get into the same mental mess that i'm in for the second time right now.
4) Attemp to not "Lack Discipline"
4.5) STOP CRAPPING
5) If possible, feel true happiness (which coincidentally by defination does not exist)

Mirage

2008-11-28T05:26:00.002+08:00

Against all odds, I thought that it would work out just fine. Ever since that day, I’ve been waiting; thinking and hoping for changes which now seem vague and improbable. My confidante advised me against such hopeless thoughts and to dismiss them at once "It is very difficult.." he said. I promptly ignored those lines and proceeded on forwards with a determination which now proves to be highly over-rated by myself. Changes did happen at least according to my own personal interpretation and it occurred over a short time span of a weekend. What is going on exactly? If it has such an effect that means that it must really be important, after all our emotions often betray ourselves. I rationalised and came out with several possibilities and all of them bode ill for me. I kept on thinking of other possible explanations and finally exhausted all scenarios. Creeping uncertainties nagged at me and finally overwhelmed me, engulfing me in whirlpool of thoughts, majority of which plunge me down deeper into a black hole which swallows all hope. Now my mind is fixed on this singularity that for me it’ll always be like this which effectively kills my soul. Greek mythology has got one thing wrong. When Pandora opened the box, all the seven sins was released but there was however no Hope.

Please don't let me go through july all over again.
Please don't tell me everything has just been a mirage.

Forget it.

2008-11-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

Thanks guy for reminding me on thursday. I was trying to look on the postive side of things and you had to do such a cruel thing to me all in the name of fun. Thanks really. But i'll wait and see what happens. As usual (not that much would happen anyway). Seek to understand then to be understood. wow.

It's a crime you let it happen to me
~~Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you~~
Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose
but my mind and all the things I wanted

Evertime I get it I throw it away
It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay
by the time I lose it I'm not afraid
of looking at you truly fake it

How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see

Forget it

There's a place I see you follow me
Just a taste of all that might come to be
I'm alone but only breath you can breath
to question every answer coming

Just send away
Please me let me stay
Coming your way

Forget it

It's a crime you let it happen to me
Out of mind, I love it, easy to please
Nevermind, forget it, just memories
All the pain inside a spiral notebook

Just send away
Please let me stay
Coming your way
I can live forever here

Forget it

How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're a part of me that I don't wanna see

I can live forever here

Long Overdue

2008-11-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Procrastination.
I hate it.
I have so much things to do.
Too much.
Some are more important than others.
Should have started on them.
Now for some, its too late.
Regret.
I do not have time for it.
Reflect.
I will

anyway... i should have posted this video of sid pr/dancing a long time ago. probably should have done it 3 weeks ago or 2 i think.

Retaliation!

2008-11-15T09:00:00.002+08:00

Its not second hand, not by casual word of mouth. It came from the source.
That's the reason why its authenticity cannot be doubted.
Pretense. Denial.
The past is what makes us in the present.
But its not much of a "present".
That's why there's something called history.
To learn from the past.
Understand what happened.
Understand why it happened.
and Understand why it would happen again.
and if possible Prevent such a repeated occurance.
well, its Not possible at this time.
The things I would do to turn back time...

:(

2008-11-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

its coming to me over and over again.

Blockage

2008-11-11T09:19:00.000+08:00

You are really childish.
Blocking.
Nobody ever uses that feature.
Up Yours

Basic Ethics

2008-11-09T18:39:00.002+08:00

"Do not do unto others as you would expect they should do unto you"
The above is a golden rule which is forgotten by many.
It is the basic rule of reciprocity which is currently and most like will remain neglected.
There is nothing much that will change.
It should have been rather clear why.
I'm giving you what you want.
Unleash your self-proclaimed righteous upon me.
It'll backfire someday.
I've tried for a long time and if that just ain't convincing.
Then bury youself deep in a hole.
I hope you'll axphyxiate someday in your miserable pothole with a sudden realisation.
I always.........

I know i'm bored

2008-10-27T19:30:00.002+08:00

but i'm adding this to my wishlist.

I want this

cellphone.

Yes it is a cellphone and it has a standby time of 4-5 days apparently.

Link to the product website

new skin (kinda)

2008-10-18T21:30:00.002+08:00

Yay! Finished with my new blog skin. Ok, not really finished since I would be changing the fonts and stuffs. But the main thing that is the animated background is done! Go me!

Hmm... exams are over and I am bored which was why I made the background. Now I'm finished and i am bored again. Yesterday after Math HL paper 2 i went out to watch Eagle Eye at Cineleisure. Eagle Eye was an interesting movie. The main plot revolves around an AI whom is able to analyze everything. The movie was cool all the way until the freckled kid came out. Even then it was still alright till the ending which ruined the entire movie. The only good part about the ending was the kid getting rock band, but then again it was the freckled kid so it made the ending sucky too. Afterwards we went to matthew's house which I liked since it has a lift instead of a door. Spent majority of the time stoning there and trying to play warmness on the soul. After that we went to sid's place. His part wasn't really wild but its still went wrong. People got erm... this and that. But all that was yesterday.

As for today. I was bored as already stated above. Still am. Was thinking of some things. They were frustrating. I felt weird in the sense I was contemplating of the present and the near future in such a way that I was not very sure if i wanted what I suspect would happen in the near future. However the other altenative possibility would be something that I would look forward to. Pessimism ------(X)--------Optimism, (X) is where I am right now. The only option I have is to wait and see what would be the outcome of tomorrow. Chances. Since offered, I will take it, one way or another.

2 more days and still....

2008-10-15T21:25:00.001+08:00

This Sucks

LAM's KITCHEN

2008-10-13T17:49:00.002+08:00

omg!

Click to view the picture clearer. Note. It says Delicious chinese... NO KIMCHI or stuffs. Only DIMSUM

Cloned Boredom

2008-10-11T17:34:00.001+08:00

Haha DaNuShA loves everything!

--

2008-10-11T00:19:00.003+08:00

P is for Purple

-

2008-10-10T20:50:00.004+08:00

This is what i was doing.

I know I'm a tard.

Dreary Dreamy Discovery

2008-10-09T09:13:00.004+08:00

Its amazing that you can go search for something everywhere only to find the answers withing yourself. No, this is not a cliché. Why not? People whom find the answers that they were seeking inside of them would often obtain a flash of enlightenment. Not me. What I found was a deluge of bits and pieces threatening to engulf in in either of the extremes. Its not hard to see what the fragments are but rather it is in interpreting it that proves to be a tremendous trial. Sure, they all fit together in this way like a jigsaw puzzle. However the only problem is that this is a puzzle with the pieces blank thus its up to the brain to fill in the details. I found one possible but not quite probable solution to this complexity. This paticular construct which I derived seems to have two outcomes, one of which I would very much prefer yet seems to be just inexplicable. All this ponderings of the desecrated segments now just seem to be the rantings of an inflamed mind. I implore you to please give me an indication that I am not losing my mind lest i deplore you forever.

boredom....

2008-10-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

Here's something fun to try.
Copy and paste the below character before typing.
‫‬‭‮҉

Failure...

2008-10-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

Yesterday at approximately 9p.m. I was sitting at my desk typing out the math IA when my desk lamp flicked and hissed. I glanced at it before returning to my work. So finished up on one part of the IA. Clicked saved. The desk lamp just went out with a "pop" sound.

Ah crap.

Power failure.

However it turned out the it was not only my apartment but it was the entire block. And our block had a cojoined block which suffered from the same thing too!

And it turned out that the Main Circuit Box of the block had blown thus cutting all power to both blocks and the surrouding region of the carpark.

After half an hour, PUB sent a huge mobile generator to our house. They worked really hard to plug the thing in. Well, though they did, they had dificulties in plugging their thing into the power room. So finally I went to sleep and at 12.30a.m. today they got the generator working.

How did i find out?

The stupid fan and lights switched on.

Here's a picture of the not so mobile generator which require a truck to transport it.

!!!

2008-09-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

Exams coming soon! Too soon! Other than that, i have nothing else to blog. Oh well...

My Brain! Overloading!

2008-09-20T22:50:00.001+08:00

weijie! says:
can you imagine ME being [not meant for your eyes] ? no right.
weijie! says:
same thing lah
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
haha wth>
weijie! says:
its different.
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
wait you're [not meant for your eyes]?
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
ewww...
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
haha jk
weijie! says:
and no i didnt literally mean IMAGINE.
weijie! says:
haha
weijie! says:
but if you have a samsung screen
weijie! says:
its not that hard to imagine
weijie! says:
HAHAHHAHAHA
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
omg
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
LAME
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
LAME
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
LAME
weijie! says:
HAHA
oʇuıʎ*yinto says:
on a scale of lameness it weijie(2x)
weijie! says:
HAHA
weijie! says:
IKNOW
weijie! says:
it just came into my mind
weijie! says:
HAHAHA
weijie! says:
can you blog it
_____________________________
yes i can...

Birthday Analysis

2008-09-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

15th January 1991

What tree did i fall from?

ELM TREE (Noble-Minded) [*me gives a smug look* haha]
pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, loudest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded,
generous, good sense of humour, practical

My birthday colour code
YELLOW
You are sweet and innocent.
Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.

Dream on

2008-09-20T21:34:00.001+08:00

I had a really weird dream last night. It must mean something but i cant find out its significance. Damn you stupid dreams.....

Nightmare

2008-09-14T09:05:00.002+08:00

I have a pendulum wall clock out in the living room. I woke up when the clocked chimed at 9a.m. Before that I had a nightmare. I have no idea why as to why I would have such a nightmare though. It involved me and some people (obviously) and a busy road with heavy traffic. By now it should be rather clear what happened in my dream. When it happened, I couldn't believe it. As I am typing this out the details are becoming foggier. After the accident, I somehow ended up at home and I cried and said some stuffs. After which I heard the chime and woke up. Now I probably shouldn't be having such a dream which i deemed as a nightware and caused me to be jolted awake with a semi soaked t-shirt.

Last Time

2008-09-08T19:19:00.006+08:00

Damn... I've been repeating the same thing over and over again and I swear that this time will be the last. I know. Everytime you lie it justs pulls me further away from you. All this time it was your fault. You know that yet you always tried to blames me. Most of the time i would try to placate you but it all ended up with you pushing me over and over again. I had hoped that it would changed. But now its seems more and more improbable. I know lots more, in fact almost everything. How do I know you may ask but how I know is not of the issue is it? It was a mistake from the very beginning. I should never have told you what I told you earlier in the year. Then it would most likely have passed on and would have affected me that much. Sure you have used the excuse that I am ignoring you, but think about it carefully. Look deep down into your soul if you can still find it and ask yourself who was the one whom was ignoring the other and for what reason was it for. I'll give you a hint as to to what the reason for ignoring me was, it has something to do with a certain week in June. Sure you have said that it was only for that one week but You and I both know that it is not true. Some other people know too. I expected better from you. Sure you made it very clear about the entire thing but I still treated you as a good friend and i trusted you more than anyone. But all I received in return are but a bunch of poorly woven lies. Just because I appear to be oblivious it does not mean I am ignorant. I knew about everything one week after the start of the third term. I feigned ignorance to see how far you would take it. Apparently you are willing to go all the way and still show no sign on turning back. I implore you to come clean with the entire thing. There is no point in holding up this facade and playing this charade. I know much more than you think I know. Before today or even yesterday, you would have use somthing as an excuse to vent your anger and frustration on me. But now that something is over, I have no longer any reason to placate you anymore. I still treat you as a friend though. While there is still a thread of friendship between us now, I hope you would tell the truth. It might mend this friendship. Adveho tersus per verum

Would Blog....

2008-09-07T08:54:00.004+08:00

Challenge week was too short of a week. Wiang Kaen was so nice. White Water Rafting too! But moutain biking was seriously a pain in the ass. Flight of the gibbon (ziplines and stuff) was too short, could have been higher and longer.

Ok here's a photo of the Catholic Mission of WiangKaen. It'll take a while to load as its 9+mb and thats because 10 photos were spliced together.

Honestly stop the lies.

2008-08-30T06:37:00.000+08:00

Ok. So now i am at the airport right now. woke up at 3.30am just to see gab's sms which asked us to be there by 6.15. and i thought we had agreed yesterday that we would meet at 5. well, seems like i was mistaken. Anyway i am now at burger king and i just finished eating breakfast. joey's reaching soon whereas gab+niko are still MIA. so i would have to go up soon. first 4 days i'll be with a bunch of thai kids and the next 4 days i'll be having some fun activities. YAY! still tired... will board the plane soon in slightly more than 1h. Bye guys! have fun and good luck for your challenge week. oh and i'm going to try to find some dim sum in thailand. weijie remember, 10.30 HKtime.">">

Wakey Wakey for CW

2008-08-29T21:36:00.001+08:00

I'm too lazy to blog. So i shall blog tmr at 5am GMT+8 when i'm at changi airport. haha wake up to see my post. Good luck to all those ppl leaving within few days. Have fun and be tards but be smart tards and dont mess around to much.

Un-laggified or something

2008-08-27T20:54:00.005+08:00

Ok i have replaced the banner with a cut-down version cause the original lags a bit too much. Now it has lesser effects :( Plus the spastic ball thing was supposed to be removed but i'll just leave it there for now.

Go Weijie!

2008-08-26T22:02:00.001+08:00

Oh and Go weijie!
http://pandaammonium.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html

Quote Weijie
if everyone cared, and nobody cried
if everyone loved, and nobody lied
if everyone shared, and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
I don't know what exactly is the cause of all these unrest, why people have to do it, but yes it's become sucha big problem that none of us can escape from it. i dont have much to say but im just confused why some of you just cant make peace and settle things the proper way. get to the point, talk about it. dont dwell on it. finding solutions is better than doing something dumb which gets nothing done in the end but just more hatred. im sure the problems are small but just made big with lotsa pepper and salt. i agree to a certain extent its fun to bitch and gossip. and i know, its cool to have some drama right, makes your life so exciting. but well. gosh, grow up you people...
(:

Unquote Weijie

yinto supports you! haha idk why too... oh yeah, thats because my blog is supposed to be random.

Flash!

2008-08-26T21:51:00.002+08:00

Yay! made another "banner" i think its nicer than the wall socket thingy. But now its a bit laggy. Will try to find a way to make it less laggy without removing some cars. It wasn't as laggy with one car per lane but i added more and now its laggy. must "un-lag" the thing. Oh the traffic light changes colour too! And if i didnt add the blur to the cars, the cars' headlights flashes too.

sort of done.

2008-08-25T20:01:00.003+08:00

ok, i made some changes but i think its still crappy. too lazy to make it look nicer now. might change in the near future. oh and yes i know its random which i think fits me perfectly.

More Hot Chocolate Fudge!

2008-08-23T02:26:00.004+08:00

As long as it happens, nothing will change.
I want it to change.
But it seems like it will not change.
I see.
Things are meant to go both ways.
When they do not and i just so happen to know.
Things would remain the same.
Almost gone.
The little things do not go unnoticed.
Point is that i know, and it can be observed.
No point denying it.
I know.
As long as there's denial.
Nothing would ever come out of it.
Coming clean is probably the best way.
Take it or leave it.
Sick and Tired of the facade.

Pathaway

2008-08-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

The path is clear now.
Now i must stay on it.

Fixing and Updating

2008-08-21T16:11:00.003+08:00

I am going to fix and update stuffs

Dots

2008-08-20T18:48:00.001+08:00

pǝsnɟuoɔ puɐ dn pǝssǝɯ ʎ11ɐǝɹ ʎ11ɐǝɹ

Lost Meanings

2008-08-18T18:02:00.003+08:00

"1000 Words" FF-X2 OST

"Blood" Papa Roach, Getting Away With Murder

* ~~I will forgive~~ but I won't forget

And I hope you know you've lost my respect

You better watch out
If you don't know whats going on around you
You better think twice *

Hmm... Interesting.
I'll be nicer to you than you are to me. If you think i'm not that nice, then that tells a whole lot about you. You know what you did. You know what you are doing. "What am i doing?" YOU KNOW. Somethings that you did and said, you may think that i'm ignorant but I'm NOT. I KNOW. So much for words. Good day to you.

Chocolate Salty Balls

2008-08-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

"How would you like to suck my chocolate salty balls" Chef

Get the FUDGE out!

I have a mantra now.