my life

round 3. game over?

Peace

I would be at peace.
If it wasn't for the stupid IAs and Mocks being stuck together like gum on a shoe.

failed or failing.

Some things, I do better than others.
These other things, I simply struggle with them.
It would be meaningless to say that I should have tried.
In fact it would not even be entirely accurate.
I'm trying to, but nothing just comes out the way I want it to be.

Yes, the silly ideas about have side by side houses.
Grand, comforting but it'll all just end up as one other illusion.
Still. It was soothing for the mind while it lasted.
To dream of the impossible.
To dare reach for it.
Just to fall back.
To where I came from.
Nowhere.

X-X

DEAD for some time

and its gone...

that was really quick
one moment it was there
and next it does not exist anymore

untitled

I'm really unsure.
Yes I know that this isn't much of an excuse.
But...
Are you referring to me?
The mind tends to see things that it wants to.
I want things not to be like it is now.
At the same thing I dare not take hasty actions.
The brain sees similar things elsewhere and make assumptions.
I hate these presumptions.
It tears me apart though I have to keep and suppress the pieces.
Please for once. Give me your thoughts.
Don't leave me here all alone. Sad.

Nasty little bugger she is.

YAY my first post in a while.
(not that many people care actually except for Jose! and his arse! [NOICE!!!] hahaha :P)

Haven't had the time to blog and in fact I probably should not be blogging now.
Should be sleeping.
Or working. [taking a rest now :) ]
BUT... oh well. Things does now always work the way that we want it to.
So we've got to make the best out of life!
Or what's left of it.
So let me see, plenty of work to do, some from the previous checklist.
I guess i really should not be blogging then.

Section A








Well, its been several really average weeks due to some awesome ones and crappy ones so the mean is about average. We watched Star Trek last Friday after Founder's Day and it was not bad! Not bad at all. Humph. I am not a Trekkie. Still it was pretty good. Now I can't wait for terminator and transformers. Both of which happens to be movies about robots! No, i do not have a bot fetish unlike some of you people. :P Anyways, gotten closer to some of you people and i've got one more BFF making it to a grand total of 4 BFFS. Haha. Man, i love you guys.

Section B
- is going to be short and simple
HUH?

Section C
You. Yes You. No not You. YOU!!! Me? huh? No. You.
Oh, it is so confusing and kinda nostalgic.
I remember when the same thing used to happen to me.
But I have learnt something today.
Would anything be different if I took a different approach?
Possi-ble but quite improba-ble
The thing is, I see you in you!
All the same things, I see it resurfacing in the same manner.
Albeit not to me this time.
Lucky me. Not having to face the same confused moments of despair.
Not having to admit to anything just for the sake of meaningless placation.
Yes, I'm sure we all do things deliberately and intentionally just to well, make you say you're sad.
Well, they were unintentional anyway.
Believe it or... No you won't
"Your ego is so out of whack that it would do whatever it can to protect itself. And people with a messed up ego can do these mental gymnastics to convince themselves they're awesome, when really they are just douche bags"
--- Kyle the Jew
Yes. Blame us. We're all self-centered that we only care about ourselves. If face we deserve to be pitied by the likes of you. We're all lack identities and more.
These are the mental gymnastics that you have done to convince yourself that it is everybody's fault but yours. You'd really think that the two different people would end up being the same? I would say its you. After you use the exact same words to try to break someone. Some keywords which i hardly feel the need to put in place here.
Those are my thoughts as a bystander now and a ex-victim.